Breathe Slow

Breathe Slow

I’m running out of patience
‘cos I can’t believe what the hell
I’m hearing
And speaking of hell
It don’t compare to this heat
That I am feeling

I love you too much
It shows
All my emotions go
Out of control
Good for you bad for me
When I can hardly see
From the tears that flow

Can’t forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
‘cos ladies take it in
And get composure
Before I lose it get composure

I am gonna breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
‘cos ladies take it in
And get composure
Ladies never lose composure

Not gonna lie
Or even try
You’ve got my wheel spinning
And I ain’t the one to shoot the gun
‘cos that means you will be
Winning

I love you too much
It shows
All my emotions go
Out of control
Good for you bad for me
When I can hardly see
From the tears that flow

Can’t forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
‘cos ladies take it in
And get composure
Before I lose it get composure

I am gonna breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
‘cos ladies take it in
And get composure
Ladies never lose composure

Somebody better hold me back
You’re lucky I know how to act
(so lucky ain’t gonna attack)

I’m being calm and cool
But believe me you
It’s taking everything to just
Breathe breathe breathe …

Can’t forget to breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
‘cos ladies take it in
And get composure
Before I lose it get composure

I am gonna breathe slow
Count from one to ten
With my eyes closed
‘cos ladies take it in
And get composure
Ladies never lose composure

This song is the probably the only thing right now that helps me breathe every time it happens. It sucks because I hate it whenever it happens. You should know.

 

P.S. Hey guys, I’m sorry if nothing make any sense but don’t worry, I will be fine. Somehow.

I love wireless. Really. Cause right now i’m blogging from my phone! Now isn’t that something new? Yes i’m bored! And if you were gonna ask why didn’t i blogged from my laptop, it’s because i was so distracted by other stuff. E.g. Youtube. And now it’s 2am and i’m supposed to sleep but since i finished dance at about 10pm, i’m still feeling all the energy. We learnt jazz today. It was something new for me, for sure. And i was so bloody lethargic this morning when i woke up yet right now i’m still wide awake. I really should sleep now and wake up early tomorrow for some work but now that i’m blogging i can’t stop! Darn. I have to pay $86 for 4 pairs of uniforms tomorrow! $86!! So expensive! But what to do, it’s gonna last me for three years. Alright i’m going to sleep now. Sweet dreams everyone. P.S. Remind me to add the word ‘damn’ into my phone’s dictionary. Lol. And i’m missing someone now. Sigh. Goodnight people!

Another year goes by…

And this would be the last year I’m going to be in my TEENS. Quoting from Kak Nik, next year, I’ll be ticking a completely different box. LOL. I’m OLD!!!! But at least I had fun. HAH! So this was what happened, on Thursday, I had a good presentation, with credits to all my group members, and we did impressed our lecturer, so its a great thing! Then that night, Tanveer took me out for dinner as an early birthday gift at Manhattan Fish Market. My fish was huge (I forgot what the fish is called) and well, unfortunately, it’s not a very meaty fish. But, no matter, it was a good dinner, and I had a good conversation with Tanveer. Also managed to talk to Ernest, who called from KL and he forgotten that it was my birthday and it was funny, cause he told Tanveer to not say a word and pretend that he, Ernest, didn’t forget. HAH! Then he got me on the phone, and tried to pretend he didn’t forget but it didn’t work, because it wasn’t really my birthday yet, as it was only the next day. LOL! But poor guy, Physics 2 took his mind off my birthday and me, being the angel, perfectly understood. Hahahah! I’m so full of myself.

 

Then it was my birthday the next day! :D ! We had a little class celebration because one of my classmates, Janelle also has the same birthday as I do, and this celebration is for all the May babies. :P ! Four of us, me, Janelle, Thandar, and Carina. And we got cake!! But these people are evil!!! I was smeared with cream from the cake!!! Adam smeared them on my nose, and Sharul smeared me on my cheeks, and Ain smeared me on the other cheek!

 

TRAITORS!!! Rawr!!

 

They even took a photo of my smeared nose and me crying out of frustration! I shall post it up when I have the picture, I thought it was pretty amusing. LOL.

 

And I’m going to be very full of myself now and start boasting about my latest achievements. (PLEASE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD, FORGIVE ME) I got 48/50 for my Bio Science E-Assessment! Wheeee! So happy!!! But since I’ve broadcast this on public, that would mean I have to keep it up, and failure in doing so would only embarrass me. –.- Shucks.

 

But you know what’s the best part of the day? I was to fly home to KL that evening!!! Oh you cannot imagine how excited I was! :D ! And thank you so much to dearest Priya and Ain for their willingness to follow me all the way to Changi Airport. :) It seems that being alone, and having to depend on myself would allow me to be more…observant and ‘clever’ in a way. Which I think is a good thing, cause I managed to clear the airport with no problems!

 

I have to say, this would be the first time I’ve gone on an airplane all alone!!! *gasp*! Am pretty proud of that too! hee. When I got to LCCT, Kak Nik was waiting for meeeee!!! OOOO! I was so happy to see her!!! The both of us were literally bouncing away from the airport. Hahaha! And we talked and talked and talked til I reached home. And my mom came out looking surprised and started going, “YOU!!!” to Kak Nik. And stuff like… “WHAT HAVE YOU DONE???” Lol! It was hilarious!! Kak Nik was ready to drive off to the safety of her home! But I missed my family sooooo much!! :( It was so good to see them again!!! Dad was particularly surprised and elated! ^^ Then we went out for Nandos! Cause we all haven’t had dinner, so Nandos it was! It was good to have Nandos again. LOL. And we talked and talked and talked til sometime after midnight. Then I called Ernest, and he didn’t pick up at first. But he called back and the first thing he said was ‘What the hell??!’. LOL! He was darn surprised alright. We talked and talked and talked for about 40 minutes?? So long. At the end of the conversation, he was like, ‘hey man, good surprise’. I smirked and went, ‘I know.’ *wink* Hahaha.

It was so so good to be home. I couldn’t wake up the next day!! My bed was so deliciously tempting me to stay in all day but I had to buy me some clothes, cause I’m running out of clothes here!! So the whole family went off to KLCC. I had to consider the space that I am allowed to bring back to Singapore, so yes, that means, less shopping for me. No pretty shoes this time. :( But I got about 5 tops from Padini. They’re made of cotton and I’m pretty convinced they will get me through the HOT CRAZY WEATHER in Singapore. *shines*

That night, I went out for dinner with Kak Nik and Kak Lye Ching at Tony Roma’s at Sunway. And there was a “special guest appearance”! Lol! Yes, he was there! ^^ I finally got to meet him! *hops around like a happy little child* So we ate ate ate, and we talked, talked, talked, and I had Chocolate Avalanche, and it was so good, that I literally started floating on clouds, and I was feeling all light, like I could fly, and I was (as quoted) almost drunk, and Kak Nik and Kak Lye Ching started making me laugh, and God, I thought I was gonna turn blue!!! I couldn’t breathe! I have some air, but it wasn’t enough for my brain, or my heart, or my other organs, and I was laughing and I couldn’t take in enough oxygen. It was torture. When I could actually breathe again, I had to tell myself to just stop laughing for the time being, or risk the same situation repeating itself. Man, it was difficult. Especially when Kak Nik and Kak Lye Ching were just staring at me like I might pop any minute! Lol! After the Chocolate Avalanche, I had to finish the cheese cake which they didn’t finish!!! Hmph! For some ungodly reasons, I actually finished desserts! both of them! I think it’s the fact that I know when I get back to Singapore, there would be no such time and thing such as desserts. LOL. I was a very happy child that night. :)

When I got home, I fell asleep the minute my head touched the pillow. I didn’t know I was that exhausted. I was dreading the next day, but it had to come and I couldn’t stop the sun from rising, can I? I spent the better part of the day at home, packing, and such, and after that, I went out for a little while with my mom to get a bag. Heee. When I got back home, had lunch, packed some more, I bathed, got ready, and soon, it was time for me to leave home again. I left quite quickly because I didn’t know if I could take anymore goodbyes. I failed of course, sheesh. I’m HOPELESS. To cut the farewell short, Kak Nik sent me to the airport, and off I flew. Pathetic. I missed home the minute I left it. Hmph. Now I miss home even more!

Priya was very nice, she bought me hot fudge chocolate cake with ice cream yesterday after French! As a post-birthday treat! It reminded me greatly of the Chocolate Avalanche. :) *sigh* How sweet of Priya. Remind me to remember her birthday. LOL! This girl is too adorable to miss her birthday.

Well, here I am, in the comfort of my room, trying to do E-Learning, but really, when am I not distracted. –.- It was raining since this morning, and I’m getting so comfy at home, that I’m so ever reluctant to go to school later this evening for dance practice. Sigh. Shucks. I should really get back to E-Learning, make use of all the time I have now. Because assessments are coming again!!!! Next week, I have 2 assessments on the same day!!! One presentation, one clinical. Oh my god! I’m going to die! *gasp*! I can’t fail!!! Hu hu hu.

Yes it’s a sign, that I have to log off for now. Its been a very long post, and I doubt most of you would read to the end. I wouldn’t blame you but I have been missing so many days that I lost track about what I should write and what new happenings that I was supposed to tell you all. Nevertheless, I am thankful that I blog. LOL.

I’m starting to talk crap now. Alright, time to go now!

Toodles.

P.S.: I have a feeling I’ll start blogging again tonight.

Facebook quizzes are driving me nuts!

It’s 8.15pm right now, and I have an e-assessment coming up on Tuesday for Bio, and here I am, doing this What Lord Of The Rings Character Are You? quiz, and what I should be doing is study my ass off!!!

WHAT AM I DOING???!!!!

Zunny, you gotta wake up from your reverie. NOW!!! *smacks head*

*poofs*

P.S. Life’s been evil this past week, but there may be good sides to the evilness, I just don’t know it yet. Good side, please reveal yourself before you kill me in the process. I’m still waiting.

What do you do when…

You’re nearly depressed, and worried about your loved one, when you’re so far far away??

When all you want to do is give all your love and comfort? And when you know that you can’t do anything when you’re all the way here?

When you can feel, exactly what your loved one is feeling, and it actually hurts you too?

What do you do?

I watch Russell Peters. At least, he makes me forget the reality of the real world, and let me see the humour in it all.

Thumbs up for Russell Peters.

Beggers can’t be choosy. So they say.

Aloha peeps!

 

Please forgive my long long absence, but I’ve been trying to adapt myself to the life here, and keeping up with everything’s that’s happening. (E.g. college assignments and recent activities) So, I suppose some of you are pretty curious as to what happened during my MIA period. Let me try and recall everything…

 

So, I’ve already done 2 presentations on my second week of college. Fast huh? Well, no I didn’t do it solo, it was a group work thing, and unfortunately for my group, we weren’t exactly well prepared. :( Lucky for us, we did come up with materials. But I have to say, we presented them spontaneously. Sharul and I met up before class and went through all the points and we even came up with some last minute demonstrations like…5 minutes before the 2nd presentation! We have 2 more presentations to go, and these 2 are going to be graded! *gasp*! This time, there’s no room for mistakes and errors! We have got to be perfect! For the sake of everyone’s good marks, we have to do it! I’ve been told by seniors and friends, not to screw our first years up cause it will reflect on our overall results by the end of the 3 years. That’s if I stay there for that long.

 

Right now, my Clinical Nursing Skills and Techniques textbook is wide opened in front of me, but of course, instead of reading it, I’m happily blogging, updating my life here. Lol. This week had been HECTIC. I’m serious. Classes are going as usual now, and some of us actually got messed up with the crazy timetable and e-learning stuff, and co-curricular activities have already started. I’m now in the swimming team, and trying to re-learn how to swim, since I’ve lost the “swimming touch”, lol! And I went for Stage Arts Dance audition, but I’m not sure of the results yet. It’s gonna be released sometime this week. As in on Tuesday or something. *shrugs* I hate going home alone, late at night. :( But I can’t help it, seeing that when there’s activity, I end late, like at 8pm and by the time I get home it’d be 9.30pm. That would be considered early. Sniff. If I’m unlucky, I may end later.  *groans* Which would lead to going home alone and LATER at night, and having late dinner, and having to wash clothes late into the night. Ahhhh!

 

So Friday was Labour’s Day and I went out with Ernest and Tanveer. Went walking around Citylink Mall and Suntec Mall, and then took the train to Orchard Road, and walked walked and walked some more, til we were almost dead. Then we went to some mall which I forgot what name, and watched a movie. Horsemen. I don’t think it’s out in Malaysia yet, but it’s traumatising! Like Ernie said, there’s sort of lack of substance in the movie, but overall it’s like Prom Night. Tee hee.

 

Oh and I got some news for everyone here…

 

*drum rolls*

 

I GOT A NEW PHONE!!! Woo-hoo!!! It’s a Sony Ericsson W705! :D ! I’m like the happiest girl on earth, (mainly just cause I finally got a new phone, not because of the model that I got, lol) though I think it would’ve been cooler if I can get a Samsung OMNIA or iPhone (not a huge fan but just the similarity in the phones), but I shall just be content with what I have now. :) Unfortunately for me, I didn’t get the Youth Plan cause I registered under my auntie’s name, and thus making me ineligible for the Youth Plan. My auntie’s not a student if you haven’t already gotten that point. Hmph! I was VERY VERY disappointed but if I had wanted to settle it quicker, I had to just take what I can get. Now I’m stuck with this plan for 2 years. And what sucks is, at the back of my mind, I’m wondering if I should’ve waited for a little while, maybe one day or two, to check out my other options, but like Ernest said, once we make a decision, we cannot regret it or we’ll live terribly. If you know what I mean. Now let me show you my baby!! And don’t get me wrong, my laptop’s also my baby. I have 2 precious babies. *smiles smugly* And guess what? My baby phone is also RED and BLACK! hahahahah! You see a pattern here?? Cause I do! LOL. I’m a happy, (albeit a little pathetic) child.

my baby2my baby1      

my baby3

 

Ah, I’m content. For now. Hehe.

Class is at ten tomorrow morning. I have French lessons. Cool eh? Someway or another it’s mandatory. Lol. Will tell you guys how it all goes. :)

 

Sweet dreams.