I think I need chocolates.

Because my head is throbbing. But guess what? I haven’t been doing anything for the whole day! For once in weeks, I just let loose and NOT do anything! You can say it’s a complete waste of time but please. Just for this once, let me do it. Because I know it’s going to be a long time before I can pick up my guts to do this again. Leaving everything behind and let time pass. How reckless. Musical is over, so here comes exams, and attachments. But before I get to the bad parts, we have to also remember that CHINESE NEW YEAR IS COMING TOO!!! Yay! Ang paus, FOOD, and FAMILY! ! What great joy. I can hardly wait to leave Singapore, leave everything behind, bad memories, and all. Just to go home again. Home, where I’m safe.

 

I got this off someone’s Tumblr. You know, Tumblr’s a really cool thing. But I gotta say, it’s more for pictures and less words. Well, I’d have to say it depends. But I’m not too sure I like the fact that they have 1000++ notes after every post or something. And sometimes when you repost something off someone’s Tumblr, they have those long list like where it originated from. Maybe I’m just not familiarized with it. Anyhow, enjoy this piece, will ya?

 

 

It’s from Grey’s Anatomy. This quote I mean.

 

Boys are trouble. Really. They break your hearts, and then claimed that you break theirs. Not enough, they take away your happiness as well.

 

Sorrows aside, look at THIS!

 

 

I WANT THIS!!! LOVES!!!! SOMEBODY GET ME THERE NOW!!!! *hops around in anticipation*

 

 

The beautiful place on top + the sweetest words ever said = ROMANTIC GETAWAY!

 

Though what I need right now isn’t necessarily romantic.

Just. need. to. get. away.

 

 

Toodles.

Sleep early, they say.

Not really a possible thing that can be done, unless I ditch all my work, and just really, sleep. Lol. Came back late from musical rehearsals again. We ended at like 11 or so!! T_T! So darn late! It was almost 1140pm when I reached home! I took the other bus, and that I was the last one to get off the bus, then I gotta walk quite a distance to my block. Scary! So quiet. But thankfully, my sayang was keeping me company! ! And he actually lit up my night! *sigh* haha. Skipped dinner again, for the I-don’t-know-how-many-nights time.

 

So it’s like 0110am now and I SHOULD sleep, only thing is, I don’t want to be slacking and I SHOULD be doing some work. I have PNPE presentation and individual summary sheet to be done by this Thursday and guess what? It’s not done! ! Not even attempted. Okay, okay, not THAT bad, it’s been attempted on. Hope everyone turns up tomorrow with their part. Then we can finish it up quickly!

 

You know, I realized that I tend to link my titles to the opening of my posts. Like, I start a sentence on the title, and then finished it in the first line of my posts. Haha, this pattern is going to get boring. And I’m actually a bit bored, always talking about myself, my life, myself, my life. I want to talk about something else!! Something impactful! Hurm! What shall I talk about? :O! So many topics for me to breach on !

 

Anyway, I don’t want to waste much time, so I guess I better get ahead with my work first, I’ll blog again, soon. IF possible. Something much more interesting to talk about too, hopefully.

 

*resumes with research on Hillary Clinton. Yes, weird, but it’s for Sociology, pray hard I’ll pull through this one!*

 

God bless y’all, peeps! !

Oh yeah, before I forget, something interesting from my Biology practical lecturer.

 

There’s no such thing as SAFE SEX. There’s only SAFER SEX.

 

LOL.

 

P.S. We learnt about male anatomy today. Inside out. (Yes, again, for me, ever since I was 14 >.<). Go figure. XD!

P.P.S. I’m hungry

 

Toodles.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! :D!

Today, I shall dedicate this post to 3 people.

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEFF LEE, YUNG SEN, AND SHEN GEH! :D:D!

 

Sadly, it’s been ages since I last talked to both Yung Sen and Shen. I wonder how you guys are doing now. I don’t think you guys would even come across this post, but even though you’re far, know that I’ve always remembered and that you guys deserve an appearance here, in my humble little blog. *blush blush* I hope you guys have a great time, all of you! Have a great birthday and look forward to all the prezzies! ! *shines*

 

As for you Jeff, haha. You’ve already got your present. ! Sorry I can’t spend today with you, long hectic day for me -  all for the sake of musical. Worry not, I’ll see you tomorrow, and finally have a good proper meal for once in this entire week. If that makes you happy, lol. I was hoping you’d get pushed into the lake or smeared by cake icing or something, lol. *angelic face*

 

I love birthdays. ! They’re so happy. !

 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN, Y’ALL! *HUGS AND LOVES*

A quickie before I dash off for dance.

Just a thought. Should I or should I not have my can of Red Bull? I have a long night ahead of me, so I should have it right? Dance and making sure I don’t forget all my steps for wound dressing and surgical hand wash. Or rather, making sure the steps are all correct and I don’t contaminate the sterile field and what not. Lol. Sounds gibberish to you, no?

 

Ahh! Screw it! Having my Red Bull now, ! I’m sure you know how it feels, to know something, like a secret, but not being able to say it to anyone, neither do you know how to fix that little secret. Well. Guess everyone will go through it. Some go through it better than others do. The blue-canned Red Bull is a lot better than the Classic one, the yellow-gold can. That is just SWEEEEET. Phew. Makes you shudder after every sip. Lol.

 

So yeah, if you noticed (I’m SURE you do), I’ve changed my blog’s layout again, cause I wanted something…simple. Something…somewhat professional but not OTT. So I guess since there isn’t much to choose from in WordPress themes, this is the best I can come up with at the moment. Until something new comes. OH MY GOD. Someone is playing the piano and I just terribly miss how the melody flows…from my fingers . Sucks.

 

Anyway, I gotta run now, get ready, change and all. Can’t be late, they’ll probably kill me. Hope I’ve got everything I need. Man. Been slacking the entire day, but hey! Don’t look at me like that, I definitely did my reading for my wound dressing, hmph!

 

Got some quotes to share though.

 

 

Got this from some guy who posted it up on tumblr.com. If you see the small prints there, yeah, that guy. Credits to him. I think this is just so sad. 

 

Will come back and blog tonight, if I have any strength left, hehe.

 

 

Toodles.

It’s mid-January…

And I have yet to make my New Year’s resolution. Honestly, do I need one? Knowing that at some point this year, I will only forget what I’ve promised to do. Well, since I’m not about to write my resolution, can I write down my wish list instead?

My Wish List 2010!

1) Ipod Touch ! (Preferably a 32GB or 64GB one *winks*)

2) A pair of new shoes! Adidas? Nike? :O!

3) My new phone in May! ! (Nokia Xpress Music 5800 or Sony Ericsson Satio?? :O! I want a touch screen! !)

4) Camera!

DARN! I ran out of what I want! Hmph! How can this be??? I’ve already gotten my camera, now I can’t think what else I want. Lol. Hmm. I’ll stick this wish list on the side of the blog, so it will remind me of all the good stuff I can get this year ! *shines*! And and and, whenever I can think of something, I’ll add it in! Mwahahahahahah! Perfect!

Just did my Bio practical test today. It was ok I hope. I had some confusions along the way. Bad news is, I can’t go back to the questions to ponder about them, cause we’re only given a minute and half for each station before moving on. Sucks like shit, especially when I needed a longer time.

And I’m still trying to figure out how to stick a music player on this WordPress. I want to play my favourite songs! Hmph! I’m lazy to post up videos from Youtube, knowing that people usually will be too lazy to play them anyway. Hee.

Oh well, back to studying. Health Assessment tomorrow. :S! Gotta get going, can’t afford to fail, or JUST pass borderline.

Take care, peeps!

Toodles.

P.S. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY KIM! :D:D! HOPE YOU HAD A BLAST!! And sorry I wasn’t there to celebrate with you My great, big loss. :’(  (HER BIRTHDAY WAS YESTERDAY – 17 JANUARY 2010!~ Just gotta tell everyone, HAHAHA!) LOVE YOU TO BITS KIM!!!!

See, it’s so easy to pretend to be happy, no?

Merry Christmas…and I’m glad I’m home.

This whole week I’ve been saying that I can’t wait to meet up my friends on Saturday. Truth is…I really want to meet you guys. But I can’t bear to see the days go by. Because I don’t want to go back. I want home. And this is just like any previous post that I’ve written, days after I’m back home and can’t bear to see my days passing right in front of my eyes. It’s like some sort of countdown for me, deep down. And it sucks. BIG TIME. I wake up every morning, to see my days end, and then night falls. Sigh. It’s Christmas, and secretly in my heart, I’ve been counting down my days. Before I’ll leave my family again. Back to life alone and a hectic schedule, coming right after I go back. And I still haven’t tell my mom about it. She’ll kill me. Sigh. 5 more days before a new year comes…and this year will become history, just like the years before.

I’M COMING HOME!

Haha. I’m actually queuing up at the checkpoint in singapore blogging this on my phone. Its very cool to do this. Cooler if i’ve got my dream phone to do this with.lol. Anyway,yes I’m coming home! Like,right now! I can hardly wait! Oh,home! How i’ve longed for you! I miss everyone back home! Yay! Gonna live life to the fullest once i’m back home! Eat, sleep, play and do work. But the first three, i shall do with a conviction that i lack here in singapore. Hahaha! I’m mad. Catch you guys soon!

The worse wasn’t over

I thought the worse was over. I was wrong. I was hopping my way back to my seat with my homework just now, when I somehow lost my balance and my footing, and almost fell off my seat.

And you know what was bad? I was on video. And Jeff saw the whole thing. He froze. And then I started laughing like a mad woman. Cause it was hilariously embarrassing.

Damn!

HAHAHAHA!

Monday BLUES!

I thought today was ok. I THOUGHT. But I guess not. I woke up with my right thumb feeling painful, like I got whacked by a hammer. Didn’t think it was going to bother me but it did, since I lost all sense of strength on my right thumb. Pain shoots through the minute I apply any sort of pressure on that thumb. And then it was one of my bad hair days. That’s just the superficial layer, I even had to carry my heavy laptop to school! Was busy doing up photos for Open House booth after class from 2, til like 6 when I finally got them done. Then they say the pictures aren’t good enough, and that we need really high resolution pictures. Darn.

I reached home around 715pm, with my dinner, almost starving at that point, but I had no appetite to eat. So after bathing, I started on dinner, but I felt that…something wasn’t really right. I WAS RIGHT, my CHICKEN became PORK! I was devastated! I asked for CHICKEN and I got PORK! AHHHH! The HORROR! The minute I saw the meat, I KNEW! AHHH! Sniff. And my kimchi tasted funny today. It was…funnily sour. I just stopped picking on it just in case, it turned bad. Sniff. There goes half my dinner. What I really ate, I don’t know. But I was a little content with my rice and the veggies.

And then, do you know what’s the climax of the night??? My faulty table mirror decided to really break off its handle, fell over, and toppled my bottle of cough syrup off my table! Down it fell, and ‘KRACK!’ Glass shards and cough syrup everywhere. I was cursing at that point. And started to clear up. I was a bit paranoid about getting hurt, but brushed it off. Then I realized I didn’t know how to clean broken glass, so I went to ask my aunt’s help. I went back to my room to help shift the table when I stepped on the plastic bag containing glass shards, exactly where the glass shards lay. I almost yelled, and bounced on my bed, to look at my poor big toe. Then, droplets of blood started forming and then it wouldn’t stop. I hopped to grab some tissues and realized they were already dripping on the floor. Nasty. Deep cut. Didn’t realize it was so deep then. Thought I punctured holes in my big toe instead. Guess not. :S! Cause I was literally losing wads of tissues soaked with blood and then large droplets on the floor which can actually form a pool of blood if I had not stopped them with tissues. Which could’ve been an interesting scene, but can’t really risk it can I? So I was battling wound and blood outside the living hall, while my aunt helped me clean my room. It was actually still bleeding, even after all the pressure, and then my aunt gave me this funny-smelling Chinese powder thing that smelled like those herbs, and told me to put it on before plaster-ing my toe. Don’t think I had any shards of glass in my toe, but the cut was long, and pretty deep. Sniff.

Hmm, did I mention before that I am completely FASCINATED with blood? I’m SERIOUS. I see blood and I go, ‘Ooooo!’ It’s very interesting! Like…its dark, crimson, red… LOL! I think I shall stop here, and talk about my “fetish” for blood next time round. !

Now the toe is throbbing slightly, and quite…numb. Oh Lord, how am I going to dance tomorrow like this?? And to even PLAY FUTSAL on Wednesday…?? LIKE THIS??? I can’t even wade the sea anymore! (P.S. NR0909, which is my class, is going to East Coast on Wednesday! Class trip! Whee!) Oh, such a pity and inconvenient time to get hurt! HMPH!

I hope my bad luck stops right here. Don’t think I can take anymore bad stuff tonight. Hope tomorrow will be a better day. Sniff.

P.S. My mommy made another Skype account, by mistake. –.- Good GRIEF, she has 5 accounts NOW! I’ve gotta teach her how to stop making accounts! Lol. Oh, did I also mention, she calls me ‘baby’ now? So cute. Miss my family so much.

P.P.S. I’m going back to KL this Sunday! ! Woo-hoo! I can’t wait! And that means, I HAVE TO START PACKING! FAST FAST! !

P.P.P.S. Time for SHOPPING AND GOOD FOOD, BABEH! :D!

- I wasn’t kidding when I say I no longer feel happy the way I used to. I don’t know why. But something’s terribly wrong. It comes and hit me, where and when I’m most vulnerable. It’s terrible. –

 

What’s your passion?

Choir’s having a performance on the 27th December. I think I have a high chance of watching them perform. Makes me reminisce about the old times. Then it hit me just how bad I miss singing.

Dancing isn’t something new. I’ve danced before, but I’ve never quite understood the meaning of dance. Ever since I started dancing again…you all showed me just what it means to dance. For the past 8 months, I’ve learned that there’s a meaning behind every move, every step, every groove. Now, I’ve always tried to give my all every time I dance. Yes, I admit, maybe I don’t always give it all, maybe I still lack the passion and the stamina, maybe, just maybe. There are times when I become so so tired, I just don’t want to dance.

It’s just like singing, only slightly different. You sing and you dance, with your heart, mind, and soul. I can proudly say, I do sing with my heart, mind, and soul. With every word, you put life to it, the same as how you give life to every dance.

I’m trying to sing the song through dance. I hope I’ll succeed.

Singing is a passion. Dancing is, too. I just need to truly find it deep down within me.